争战 Spiritual warfare

属灵的战争是多么的真实！它不仅仅是生活中面对的困难与挑战，也是内心世界的挣扎！我的人生里头常常出现很多磨难和阻碍，也许在其他人的眼中会看到质疑的眼光，但对我来说这些都是挑战。我并不埋怨上帝，因为纵使艰难，这些磨难却让我看见上帝的荣耀，更加地渴慕、更加地亲近上帝。我知道切都是祂的安排，也明白这是我必须背负的十字架！

其中，内心的挣扎最为痛苦。我看到了自己的恩赐，上帝给了我锐利的眼睛去看见一些事情的盲点，也给了我爱人的心去体会耶稣的心。同时，我也看到了自己的弱点。我许多事情的考量都过于复杂，想非常仔细、有效地去处理事情却没法有效地传达给身边的人，造成了无数地误解，有时解决了问题却失去了朋友的心。也许我真的是很固执，或者我性格太骄傲，是我的错，对不起我会忏悔的。我求上帝怜悯，圣灵给予我力量和勇气去面对自己的问题，让我能够活出一个神所喜悦的生命。

Joyfulness :D

Did very badly for my mid-term quizzes on Monday morning. I was too tired and sleepy I guess. I didn't expect it to turn out like that, but I guess it's still great that I lost the score but gain much more than that. I don't regret for what I traded it for. Life can be difficult, but God has made it so much easier. A prayer silence all the anger/frustrations/sadness. A personal time with God brings peacefulness. A time to serve God is full of joy! :D In all things, we shall praise God. Father I know that sometimes people might not see it, but You will know what's in my heart and in my life. I want to learn how to love and I know there's still so much that I am lacking. Father I just hope that you will not be easy on me and please be my guiding stick. I need you Lord. Teach me how to worship You. Amen.

Stand strong buddy. Anything can die but your faith can't die. All that has to go, let it go, for it is not meant for you. All that has to come already came, what more to ask for. Life is short but a bliss, make sure we don't go home empty handed. In prayer peace is found, in God it is secured. May His everlasting love live in us, that we may last through the days where moon will not reflect light and sun darkened. Glory to the King.

Three LIES of the Modern "Church"

My Prayer

上帝爱人深切
我等又何能冷漠待人
耶稣为世人被钉十架
我等又何能明哲保身、置身事外
世界充满罪恶 各地都有人受苦呼救
我等又何能冷眼旁观、只顾自己享福音之乐
我心痛不已 上帝想必也为人感哀

我祷告 上帝啊！
愿一切病痛、哀苦都归我一人承受
因我不愿看到朋友、家人、世人受创受煎熬
这是我的自私 但愿行的是您的旨意
若人必需自己背着十架走天路
那我求您自己加持、守护他们
让我们心思意念更像您

上帝啊！ 教导我们怎么去爱人
因我们活着并非单单灵魂和躯体
而是一个全然爱和敬拜的存在
这是我的祷告 愿主您悦纳
奉主耶稣基督得圣的名祈求
AMEN